I want to write this page on two days. A good day and a bad day. Today is a really fucking good day. I am a fucking goddess. The world bends to my will. I'll have whatever I want, and I don't care who I step on to get it. I can accomplish anything I set my mind on.

BPD is like if you turned every single emotion up to an 11. Every thrill, every heartbreak, every waking thought is as intense as humanly possible. Whenever you send a message, waiting for the person you want to respond feels like an eternity. Every sinlge word they say has more meaning than it does for other people. If someone doesn't respond, they hate you. If someone responds too quickly, they are obsesssed with you.

Bad day paragraph

Oh yeah! I forgot the coolest/worst thing about BPD! Having a FP! That's a favorite person. That sounds fun right? Being completely utterly obsessed with someone to the point where it's completly dehabilitating? Every single thought you have about them is insane. You literally live and breathe for their existance. If they don't answer you for 5 minutes, it's the end of the world. When they give you attention, there's no better feeling. Your entire self worth revolves around how they interact with you. It's crippling. Super super cool and fun. Love being able to have normal relationships with people.