First of all Shinji is a transgirl and if she had transitioned the events of Eva would not have taken place the ways that they did. Gendo would have killed himself and the Third Impact would have been prevented. Shinji's internal hatred for herself is literally all due to her gender dysphoria. She's surrounded by strong female influences and wants nothing more but for them to see her as an equal, but is trapped in a stupid male body and feels helpless. Her intense feelings for Rei, Asuka, and Misato aren't necsarily of sexual or romantic desire, but rather of gender envy. That being said Shinji and Asuka are in love and need to fuck nasty. Anyway I too was a stupid pathetic failboy before transitioning. Get that girl some estrogen and see what she can do.